Sunday Funday: Got Things Done and Relaxed

On Friday, we finally tried to light the pilot light on the hot water tank after having a cracked pipe repaired a few days prior.  Thank God - after a few tries, we finally got it lit and had hot water when we got home after almost two weeks of no hot water.  It was crazy trying to get an appointment with a tech because they were so backed up due to the freak freeze that we had.  It felt good to finally take a proper hot shower.  I called dad before I went into work on Friday, and he said mom is doing fantastically better - I was SO happy to hear that!  FINALLY, some GOOD news after two months of hell.  I worked 2-10 Friday due to one of our auditors being out, so I filled in for her.  It was nice getting off the same time as Jay on Friday.  I'll more than likely work 2-10 tomorrow too because she will still be out.

Saturday, we went to the grocery store and picked up a few things, came home and got some chores done.  Today I finished going through my dresser, put some clothes up and cleaned out my laundry hamper that I have on wheels.  I had a decent rest of the week at work - it went smoothly anyways.  There's not really much to talk about in this post as it's been a quiet remainder of the week.  I have therapy on Tuesday then we have mom's care plan meeting with the rehab facility Wednesday.  Hoping on another good week.  I'm slowly going to start work on eating healthier and eventually quit vaping as well.  I was skeptical but therapy is actually going well and for the first time in a while, I can honestly say that I can feel that I'm less stressed.  I'm not where I want to be, but it's become a lot better.

I'm going to start slowly working on going through our spare bedrooms - they need to be gone through.  We kind of just use them as storage so I need to see what can be tossed, donated, etc...

Trying to minimize a lot in my life this year so I can live more comfortably and deal with less stress.

[ Can totally relate]

Oh yeah, I started my vitamins back up this week too.  I'm remembering to refill my pill reminder box when I should.  I'm learning to slow down and take things day by day.  I'm learning that a lot of my constant state of anxiety is unnecessary and is causing me extreme harm.  Through practicing breaking down my thought processes, it's helping me realize that I over worry way too much, and I can let a lot more go than I thought I could.  I still have a long way to go, and all of this is definitely easier said than done, but one day at a time will get me there.

I also took off my old nail polish from last week and put some new polish on. 👍

Going to make this week a good one!  If you change your perspective to a more positive one, I promise that your life will really change for the better. 💚

Friday Catchup: Nothing too Interesting Today but Eat your Heart Out

 *Sighs*

Tuesday, we got a phone call from dad that mom and about fourteen others in the facility tested positive for Covid so because I had been feeling like complete shit, Jason and I decided to go get tested at our local urgent care.  Low and behold, Jason tested positive (even though he barely had any symptoms) and I tested negative, having had a terrible migraine the last day or so.  Make that make sense, right?  Due to having tried everything to get rid of the migraines, I gladly accepted a shot of Toradol in my ass.  That shot pretty much resolved the migraine issue and since, I've had very minimal symptoms.  Mom is on Covid lockdown for ten days which puts us at Christmas Eve before we can see her again.  Jason and I's quarantine is over on Sunday.  No one in the facility is displaying symptoms, I guess they had just tested positive when they performed a routine Covid test.  Wednesday, I got to cleaning off/out my nightstand and did some other light cleaning on my side of the bed.  However, I've been dealing with some issues with being constipated and having a gnawing pain in my right side, so I've been doing a lot of resting these past couple days.

Depending on how I feel tomorrow, I may try to work on a few more things tomorrow.  I know Jason wants to get outside at some point and clean up the yard some.  Sunday, we have to go grocery shopping and I need to pick up some medication refills at the pharmacy.  I finally ordered some body butters from a small business I found on Tiktok called 'Ashanti Collection'.  I ordered five scents: Banana Puddin', Cinnabon, Hot Apple Pie, Blueberry Pie and Gingerbread.  I received them in the mail today and of course I had to try the Banana Puddin' one first - so far, I'm impressed!  These body butters smell amazing!

No one has told Jason whether or not he had to work inventory and apparently his primary supervisor was fired yesterday, so he didn't know whether or not if he needed to call in.  We tried to call HR and ask what he should do but no one answered the phone.  He would've just called in, but he wasn't even told whether or not he had to work it, much less a time so he knew how far in advance to call in.  In all actuality, it shouldn't matter anyways because quarantine is five days, he submitted the documentation to nursing stating he tested positive, and he called in the first two days due to it being a regular schedule.  Then we find out that they are changing our work schedules at the end of January to where they are doing away with third shift, as well as they are tacking on thirty minutes to our shift because they don't want to pay us anymore for our break.  Our new work schedules will have Jason and I going in and getting off at the same time, however, we are not going to like getting off at 12:30 a.m.  He was 2-10pm and I was 3-11pm and now we will both be 4-12:30 a.m.  First and second shift will have an hour and a half shift gap between the two shifts so parking shouldn't be an issue at least.

Jason and I lowkey applied for two jobs each last night just to see what would happen - having an interview won't hurt to see what offers may or may not be there for us.

It's been getting colder, so this is how I've been spending most of my nights recently.  MIL bought me the robe and actual mom bought me the slippers; both are extremely comfortable.

My grandmother surprised me by telling me that she finally decided to go see a doctor and that she will be getting a full workup.  Thank GOD - I've been trying to talk her into getting checked out, especially because of her age.  She was against it at first but came to her senses which I'm SO grateful for because I need her around as long as possible.  I value our relationship a lot - she means the absolute world to me.  Lincoln finally got my disability straightened out too, so thank God on that as well.  I was shorted the week prior and this week, I didn't get paid at all.  Next Friday I will get back paid for what was missed though.

Jason and I went out today to pay the mortgage and then we got Wendy's for lunch.  I haven't really been hungry the rest of the day due to being bloated and gassy with my stomach.  Pretty much I just worked on the cosmetics of my blog all day - I created both my header and my footer of my blogger as well as put a cute little frame around my sidebar picture of myself.

My Serotonin Done Took a Hiatus

Well, we never got to have that meeting at the hospital on Tuesday.  Dad got a call that they were moving her come hell over high water.  Though we read some really shitty reviews on this place and didn't want her to go there, we went in with an open mind anyways - what choice did we really have?  Mom was moved around noon time on Monday to the post-acute "rehab" facility.  We gave her a day to get settled in (I had my first therapy appointment on Monday anyway) and we went up to see her on Tuesday.  We were not impressed with the facility itself, but the staff seem exceptionally great so far - from what we can tell, they sound like they are going to come up with a good plan for her.  Also, UNBELIVABLE difference in her from the hospital to the rehab center.  

When we went to go see her on Tuesday, she had her eyes open, she squeezed our hands, she responded to things we were asking her.  It was a wonderful visit.  There are some issues I see going on with her eyes and it concerns me.  She is able to focus her eyes in on us, but her eyes wander off in a disturbing way - I'm not really sure what to make of it.  Her team is going to develop an extensive individualized plan for her and then meet with us about it.  They even will allow me to take a pet in the facility to see her - so eventually we will take Isabelle (Jason and I's first fur baby) to go see her as she is the most mellowed personality cat that we have between our three and their two that would be appropriate to have visit with her.  Like I said, we aren't happy with the appearance of the facility, but it's considerably clean and the staff seem competent and prompt with their abilities.  The goal is to get her better to come home, so this arrangement is just meant to be temporary.

Monday, I had my initial consult with the new therapist.  The area in which her office is located is not the best area, but I'm learning that you can't judge a book by its cover.  Our session was an hour and that's standard.  I provided her with an overview of my issues, she performed an anxiety assessment and I believe a PTSD assessment.  According to the results, I have severe anxiety and moderate PTSD.  We went over what my goals are and what my requirements were.  She claims she can dedicate to my case and schedule me weekly for the most part so I'm going to give it an honest try.  She's also okay with me being a long-term patient.  This happening to mom absolutely broke me to a whole other level - usually I can doctor myself and manage, but it's beyond my control at this point.  After therapy, I went to get bloodwork done for my wellness check for my insurance so I can save money - my cholesterol is high...go figure!

I made some cod this week for our dinners with egg noodles and veggies.  It came out good.  I've been having a hard week and have been staying in bed a lot so far this week...I need to find some motivation to get working on my house before I return to work January 3rd.  I've got so much organizing to do - need to get rid of shit that I don't need any more, put things away that I don't need out, etc.

Jay has to work this weekend which sucks because I was looking forward to him being home, but I guess that's life.  He may also have to work inventory after months of them saying it was only going to be team leads and supervisors.  That's what frustrates people the most is that you can never make plans outside of work because the place never knows what they are doing - it's sad and it wears people out.  Next week is his last week of work until January 3rd.

But yeah, this week's just been shit in regard to my mental health.  I know it will get better, I just need some time to stay in the bed and get some rest.  Since Jay has to work on Saturday, we will go see mom on Sunday and visit with her for a while.  I bought her a few nice things - a soft, pink fuzzy blanket to keep warm, a nice pair of purple slippers with gold lace design that are insulated and a Rudolf and his girlfriend plushie set.  I'm going to bring her the blanket and slippers on Sunday but the plushies are going to wait until she gets home.

I have to go get Jason and I's dinner prepared now.  I will post again soon. x

You're Never Too Important to be Kind

Friday, we just stayed in the house for the most part and gamed.  I wasn't feeling too well, and we don't really venture out too far on Black Friday anyway.  We did go grocery shopping since the grocery stores are virtually empty on Black Friday.  We got Subway for food, splitting half for lunch and half for dinner.  Saturday, I felt even worse, most of which was due to my period.  I think between the stress I've been through lately and such, my period was just being a pain in my ass.  I felt a little better later on and so we got Burger King which I had a hard time eating.  We've been going out to eat a lot lately just because I haven't really been in the mood nor motivated to really cook.  It was our 12-year anniversary on Saturday, and we just laid around and did some gaming.  On Friday, I made pepperoni and green beans, bought some Italian bread to go with it - that's what we had for dinner tonight.

I also made a Reese's Pieces cheesecake dessert dip - it came out SO delicious!

Today, Jason and I went up to the hospital with dad to see mom.  She is still combating a fever.  She looks completely exhausted and frail, but the doctors and nurses still assure us that she is still headed in the right direction.  They decided not to put the drain tube in her lumbar region for spinal fluid drainage due to her being stable and they are actually in the talking stages of "graduating" her from the ICU soon.  She still can't be transported to the long-term rehab center yet, so they are going to put her on a pulmonary/neurology floor in a regular room.  Dad took us out to eat for lunch when we got back into town.  We all tried chicken and waffles - it was really good actually.

Other than that, we just got the regular household chores done this weekend like laundry, dishes, cat boxes, floors, etc.  I got my decals for my car's back window that I ordered in yesterday, so I put them on today and they are so cute!

My monogram is in holographic red - the picture really doesn't do it any justice!  It's so much prettier in person.  I love the cat as well - not too sure about the tail...everyone's wiper is different so there is only so much that you can do with that.  My wiper has bends in it that crinkle the decal if I try to cover the whole wiper, so I had to modify it to make it work for my particular wiper.  Here's a little video of the tail in motion! LOL!

I meet with the therapist tomorrow for the first time.  I'm a little anxious but I know it will go fine.  I see my family doctor the day after tomorrow.  More than likely, I won't be returning to work until after December lay off at work.  They return to work January 3rd, so that's likely when I'll be released to return to work.

I seen a sign today on our way getting coffee before we headed up to the hospital that said, "You're never too important to be kind".  I have so many feelings about how this world is just going to complete shit.  Most days I wish that I didn't live in this generation - it's truly disgraceful.

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